[ and yet, ayaka's expression is glum. she truly does admire sabo's goals and fervor, but in front of such a larger than life figure, she can't help but feel smaller than she already is. in her eyes, she can't help but to think that he is one of those people that is truly free, soaring above her while she stays on the ground.
... ]
I don't think I could have ever lived a life like that. Before I met Richard, I was just... running from everything. Then I got pulled into the Holy Grail War and we were connected and... I don't know. Every time I think I'm taking a step forward, I take fifty steps back.
[ if she could be more herself, she wouldn't be holding richard back. but then again, what is she in the first place? if she can't even define that much, then everything else falls apart. ]
Sorry, I didn't mean to start pitying myself. I guess I just look at people like you or Richard and... I can't help but wish I were a little bit more like you.
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[ and yet, ayaka's expression is glum. she truly does admire sabo's goals and fervor, but in front of such a larger than life figure, she can't help but feel smaller than she already is. in her eyes, she can't help but to think that he is one of those people that is truly free, soaring above her while she stays on the ground.
... ]
I don't think I could have ever lived a life like that. Before I met Richard, I was just... running from everything. Then I got pulled into the Holy Grail War and we were connected and... I don't know. Every time I think I'm taking a step forward, I take fifty steps back.
[ if she could be more herself, she wouldn't be holding richard back. but then again, what is she in the first place? if she can't even define that much, then everything else falls apart. ]
Sorry, I didn't mean to start pitying myself. I guess I just look at people like you or Richard and... I can't help but wish I were a little bit more like you.