Then the whole Master-Servant thing is just a load of bullshit?
[She gives a little laugh as if she's unaffected by Ayaka's indignation or her words, but the overcast clouds of thought swirling around Shiv darken. How is Ayaka so damn naive? How can she say she can't control Richard like that isn't the most terrifying thing in the world?]
God, you can't be that confident in him for no good reason. What do you really have over him?
[ ayaka stands up from her seat, her hands on the table as she takes a better look at the person talking to her. ]
I'm confident because he took care of me when he had no reason to. He's headstrong, impulsive, and doesn't know fear, but... I know that he wants to do what he thinks is right.
[ even if it means standing in a field of beheaded people. even if it means killing your own father. even if he himself has said that he is burning in hell... she can't bring herself to think of him as someone that would betray her.
which is why it hurts her to have a third party put her trust into question. ]
I don't... need to hold anything over him. I just trust him and that's all that there is about it.
You admit he's impulsive and you can still trust him? The way you describe him makes him sound a bit dangerous, actually. I'd keep a guy like that on a leash no matter how good I think he is. You don't want him running off doing shit he shouldn't.
[She knows a thing or two about that. One of the biggest regrets of her life is not being more careful with her own man.]
For people fighting a war, you two don't seem like you've got a lot of mind for strategy. Kinda weird.
I guess you're right. I'm not good at war. That's why I probably wasn't meant to participate in it in the first place.
[ once again, siobhan brings up points that ayaka has thought about over and over again, ad nauseum. she's not fit to be in the holy grail war, she has no desire for the holy grail war, she's barely a mage, let alone a master.
and yet saber has chosen her over and over again, given her every out he could possibly find for her and protected her whenever she needed, despite their relationship not being solidified...and they both stuck through it all, thick and thin.
she feels no need to mention the fact that richard is in fact the king richard the lionheart, partially because that's not for her to reveal and because she actually doesn't know much about the historical figure, outside of the snippets that she's seen from his dreams. ]
I'm sorry if you're not happy with our situation but... honestly, I don't think it concerns you, Siobhan. If Saber and I die because we weren't good enough... then that's our problem. Not yours.
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[She gives a little laugh as if she's unaffected by Ayaka's indignation or her words, but the overcast clouds of thought swirling around Shiv darken. How is Ayaka so damn naive? How can she say she can't control Richard like that isn't the most terrifying thing in the world?]
God, you can't be that confident in him for no good reason. What do you really have over him?
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[ ayaka stands up from her seat, her hands on the table as she takes a better look at the person talking to her. ]
I'm confident because he took care of me when he had no reason to. He's headstrong, impulsive, and doesn't know fear, but... I know that he wants to do what he thinks is right.
[ even if it means standing in a field of beheaded people. even if it means killing your own father. even if he himself has said that he is burning in hell... she can't bring herself to think of him as someone that would betray her.
which is why it hurts her to have a third party put her trust into question. ]
I don't... need to hold anything over him. I just trust him and that's all that there is about it.
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[So sweet that she's gonna puke.]
You admit he's impulsive and you can still trust him? The way you describe him makes him sound a bit dangerous, actually. I'd keep a guy like that on a leash no matter how good I think he is. You don't want him running off doing shit he shouldn't.
[She knows a thing or two about that. One of the biggest regrets of her life is not being more careful with her own man.]
For people fighting a war, you two don't seem like you've got a lot of mind for strategy. Kinda weird.
[Must be fake. Surely.]
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[ once again, siobhan brings up points that ayaka has thought about over and over again, ad nauseum. she's not fit to be in the holy grail war, she has no desire for the holy grail war, she's barely a mage, let alone a master.
and yet saber has chosen her over and over again, given her every out he could possibly find for her and protected her whenever she needed, despite their relationship not being solidified...and they both stuck through it all, thick and thin.
she feels no need to mention the fact that richard is in fact the king richard the lionheart, partially because that's not for her to reveal and because she actually doesn't know much about the historical figure, outside of the snippets that she's seen from his dreams. ]
I'm sorry if you're not happy with our situation but... honestly, I don't think it concerns you, Siobhan. If Saber and I die because we weren't good enough... then that's our problem. Not yours.